This Must Be How It Feels

So there's Christmas lights and a tree up in the cafeteria already.

'Tis the season.

Come on, people. One holiday at a time. Thanksgiving is still on its way and we're already baking cookies and singing carols. Slow down. I need my turkey and my pumpkin pie. Don't rush me.

I get to head home tomorrow for the first time in three months. I'm really excited. Okay, that's maybe not the right word. Honestly, I'm not sure how to handle it. I've developed a whole new routine since I got to Trinity, and it's going to be weird leaving it behind, if only for a few days. It's as I've developed two separate lives: one at home and one back in Grand Rapids.

I just called Trinity home. That in itself is strange. Home, where I only know about 40% of the people around me, where my meals are either ramen or food from the cafeteria, where I sleep an average of five hours a night, regardless of when I go to bed. What happened to spending every waking moment with my closest friends Jared, Seth, and Luke? What happened to home-cooked meals, dinner around the table with my family? What happened to getting a night of sleep without waking up freezing, burning, or in a panic?

Is that not home anymore?

Now I'm going home home, and as much as I can't wait to scoop up my little brother and fist bump the twins, I'm a little anxious. I've barely talked to anyone from home in weeks, and I've of course heard friends talk about how they barely know their older siblings because they went off to college. That's a scary thought, and it's honestly the only thing that initially held me back from going to Trinity.

And because I'm working the days after Thanksgiving, there's little or no time to catch up with the dozens of people messaging me, saying "When will you be home? We need to hang out!" Sorry to disappoint some of you, but I'm going to have about literally 4 hours to chill with people, and there's already a wait list.

I guess this is just part of growing up. I have to keep reminding myself that as of August 28, 2013 I am a legal adult. Weird.

But hey. God's got this. I'm excited. I get to see my brothers again, and we'll be Minecrafting it up just like old times, making obscure movie references and providing endless sarcastic commentary on everything Mom says. Ah, the memories. :)

Today's song: To Have a Home, by Darren Criss. I just really love this song. For those of you who don't know, it's from A Very Potter Sequel, the second installment of A Very Potter Musical. If you're a Harry Potter fan and you don't mind the occasional off-color joke, it's absolutely hilarious. Take a look at the lyrics. It's good stuff. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uesDv58ZLZE

Alright, I'm calling it a night. Adventure awaits tomorrow! ALLONS-Y!!!

The Road goes ever on and on

Down from the door where it began.

Now far ahead the Road has gone,

And I must follow, if I can,

Pursuing it with eager feet,

Until it joins some larger way

Where many paths and errands meet.

And whither then? I cannot say.