Hark The Herald Angels Scream

And so the holidays are officially over. Santa has come, the presents have been opened, the cookies have been eaten, and the snow is starting to melt. 

The cousins are here, the cookies are out, the sugar is fading, and the screaming continues.

I think it's time to go home. 

Being here at home has been great. I've gotten to see all the people I've missed for the last few months. I've been visited by family, worked a few shifts with coworkers, and gone on adventures with friends. I feel like I'm back to my normal routine. School was a vacation, but now I'm home. This is where I grew up. Sure, I lived in our little house in Alger for the first three years of my life, but for fifteen years I've lived here. My life has been molded around the schedule of 1702 Sentinal. This is where I belong, isn't it? 

I'm not so sure any more. Life has moved on in my absence. I'm no longer an integral part of what goes on in this house. There are so many things that have changed since I left, and while I love being here, it just doesn't feel like I live here any more. 

And quite honestly, I've had enough vacation. I'm exhausted. I get annoyed with people really quickly. I need normality, a defined schedule, something to direct my existence. I'm sick of waking up every day and thinking "Well, I wonder what I'll do today?" 

Or the dreaded alternative: "You've got one free day this week? Good! Guess what we're doing!" 

I think as college students we're all feeling it. I'm certainly not the first one to say they're ready to go back to school. 

That being said, it's been a great Christmas break so far. I got to go shopping with Nifer, have a peaceful Christmas morning with my family, see my cousins from Iowa for the Piersma family Christmas, hang out with the guys and play Battlefront until 2:00 in the morning, and today hang out with the Middleville and Tennessee cousins for the Dokter family Christmas. 

But I've had enough screaming children. I need silence. I need rest. I need peace. 

I need classes. I need homework. I need schedules. 

I need home.

My song for today: I See Fire by Ed Sheeran. It's featured at the end of The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug. No significance, just a cool song that I just learned to play. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mllXxyHTzfg

The Road goes ever on and on

Down from the door where it began.

Now far ahead the Road has gone,

And I must follow, if I can,

Pursuing it with eager feet,

Until it joins some larger way

Where many paths and errands meet.

And whither then? I cannot say.